What I love about instrumental music is that you can still think about whatever you want to think about while still listening to something else. It's also like a soundtrack to your life. It's great just walking down the street and putting my earphones in and turning on some This Will Destroy You and making up my own soundtrack. I can think about stories. I think about my past and my future. I think about how I want my life to end up -- how I want to meet the man I want to marry, how I envision my future children, how old I will live to be. I mean, the great thing about this life is the mysteries. We don't know what is going to happen or how it will happen, just that something will and it will change us forever.
I am a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints, many term us as "Mormons." I love my church with all my heart. I will be serving a mission in Houston, Texas, leaving August 14. I'm so incredibly nervous but so excited. To spend 18 months away from my loved ones and to devote myself so wholly to God scares me, obviously, but I know I can do it, and I can do good, with the Lord and his angels by my side.
See, some people who don't know my church don't always understand our values and the rules we live by. We don't practice polygamy, we don't have horns, we are normal people. I mean, take me for example. I can't be any more normal or boring or lazy. I'm an average American girl who still has worries and pain but laughs at funny episodes of Parks & Rec or Demetri Martin. I don't know, maybe I'm not normal. Maybe normal girls my age actually enjoy shopping or gossiping or something. I hate that stuff--my favorite stores are Barnes and Noble, FYE, or Games People Play (probably because the title is so interestingly uninteresting).
I feel like I'm all over the place. What I'm trying to explain is that, to those people who completely throw themselves away from the LDS Church--don't. I mean, if you don't believe, than I'm not forcing you to stay. Just don't judge a book by it's cover--give us a try, open the book, turn the pages. See what it's like before you deny everything. There's so much more to this religion than many think. My future is this gospel. In order for my family to stay together forever, I need this gospel. In order for me to meet my Savior, Jesus Christ, again, I need this gospel. I need this gospel and I can't help but stress that to others. This gospel is so wonderful and beautiful, full of knowledge to last eternity but also the mystery to intrigue until the answers come.
Man, it's great.
This is why I'm heading to Houston in three months. Where the air is humid and the people are still happy. (Ha..Ha.) Okay, I'm from Utah. It's dry here and I still struggle in the heat. But it will be great. I don't know, maybe I'll end up loving it. I get weird with lotion and my hands being dry--maybe this humidity will help with that. It will be great. I'm stoked.
Okay..so. I'm wearing this incredibly comfortable shirt, so I'm going to go.
Songs:
Freedom Blade by This Will Destroy You
Lost in Timeless Horizons by Nyctalgia
Your Hand in Mine by Explosions in the Sky
*Type in "Explosions in the Sky" on Pandora, and be happy.
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